Married Life

The wedding literally could not have gone better. The only thing about planning my wedding that I was super particular about was the flowers. And thank the Lord...they were perfect :) Being married hasn't really changed anything. We are still the same love we will always be. It's just nice to know that someone will always be there for you.

please

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A Meaning

When the sun come arise, my mother cries.
She weeps for her own she has lost.
In the midst of her sobs, she stops to pause
It has always been for a cause.
Though she may never know why her loved ones go
The reason behind is a joy.
She forever remembers that sad stricken September
That gave new life to ones boy.

The beginning

Uncertainty in the future is something that can overcome us all. As I see my peers post pictures of dorms rooms, librarys, and studying sessions I have to ask myself what am I doing with my life? It's an akward position not to know where you stand in societly. As a soon to be married woman at 19, it's hard. Am I an adult or a child? The scary truth is neither. Because I am not following "the norm" I can't help but feel a little unsure. Don't get me wrong, I am happy to be a wife, just ill prepared. I go over in my head the career choices that would best suit my situation and wonder what if? What if I were currently attending a college and staying in a dorm? Am I missing out? Am I leading myself in a path to destruction? The answer to these question is simple. I wake up each day reassured by I, and God, that I am headed don the correct path. Through marriage, and my decisions to live by the word I have been happier than I ever have. Though doubts and fear is normal for the future, I know I am making the right chioces for my life. There has been a path layed out for me. I don't know how or where it will take me but I know the I'll be okay.

Birthdays.

The time has come where it's just another day. I remember as a kid the excitement I had even months before my birthday. As an adult, by society,  I have realized that birthdays are nothing exciting. I'm not at all bashing birthdays, I still love December 4th. Though it is different when the day rolls around, but still a good day. Just different..almost as if a different experience. 

My Lack of Wisdom

Josh just found out I have a blog. He was a little surprised. Anyways. I got my wisdom teeth out on Monday. I was so nervous for nothing. I was nervous about going under. That was the easiest part. The hard part is now. Being hungry all the time kind of sucks. Also the stress. I am SO stressed out about getting dry socket. I'm hoping this will all be over soon. 

On a happier note...it's almost Easter!!! I'm not even sure what we are doing that day. 

scare!

So my boyfriend has been having this really red eye. We were thinking that its allergies. So he's been using eye drops. Then all of a sudden we noticed that one pupil in his eye was bigger than the other. I was pretty much freaking out. Then we called the doc and they said it can be caused by eye drops. So yeah. Made me feel better. 

We will be going to the doc tomorrow though. 

We read the bible today. That helped us. We've been fighting alot lately. I think we really need to put what's important in life first. Priorities.